The difference is the situation you describe, while valid, SOMETIMES happens. Check writers nearly always slow the line down. World's worst are those who have to stand there and balance it out while everyone else waits.
***Official Friday Confessions"
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The difference is the situation you describe, while valid, SOMETIMES happens. Check writers nearly always slow the line down. World's worst are those who have to stand there and balance it out while everyone else waits.
Found this video about a month ago and during softball I'd do the dance out to the outfield.
Gotta admit the song is very catchy.
Well I have an confession that would fit this thread but it's of a serious nature and kind of a downer and don't want to bring any of you down.
Not to force you or anything but that's kind of what these threads have turned into. We have had plenty of serious stuff thrown out in here.
I have one-I still miss an ex and I still want her back even though a lot of them think I am better off. It's pathetic, I know it. I need to get to a tailgate bad. ******* weddings.
Rulzzz - I consider myself a pioneer of "throwing serious stuff out in here" and I want to hear what you have to confess!
I confess that I lurked on the hawkeye board all week, watching them blow up. Their pain was fun to watch.
ok I'll get posted within the hour. I'm about town right now and when I get home it will take a bit to compose it. While it's of a serious nature I feel it will be therapeutic plus it's one of the reasons I love this site we all have our differences and quirks but first and foremost we are all one Cyclone Family.
Yeah, you kind of took it to a whole new level because your deal was ongoing. Most of us would wait until it's over and throw it out there.
For those that care (those that don't can kiss my *** 
) an update will be provided within a few weeks!
Well here I go warning that this confession of a serious nature.
My confession is that I've been dealing with depression for a few years now. It's started couple of years ago I was really in a low place and about that time which was about 2 years in one month. Around that time I got word that high school classmate who I was very close friends with had taken his life. It really screwed me up because this classmate had it all, a wife who was his high school sweetheart and also member of our high school class. He also had a 1 year old son. I had just seen the three of them a few months prior at walmart in Ames and they looked so incredibly happy and what could of changed in a few months. This threw me for a loop because if my friend who had a loving wife and child decided that wasn't enough why should someone like myself who has nothing going for myself contiunue. Going to the service was bittersweet and surreal. As I grieved for my friend with my other classmates I could see just how hard it is on friends and family when someone does take their life. But I was also thinking about it from the mindset of the person who decides this which is while I know people will miss me but I'm just done and don't care anymore.
I was fine again for while until this last Feb when I lost my maternal grandmother. (I know people will say big deal people are born and we eventually die) This was hard for me because it was the first immediate family member I've lost since I was 8 years old. It's lot easier to process death as a child then as an adult. In early Feb. she was checked into the hospital because she showed signs of a stroke. She had tests done and they showed she did indeed have one and after a couple of days she was cleared to go home. After going home she was taken care of by my mother and my mother's siblings even my brother had spent time with her. I planned to spend the upcoming Wednesday with her. However that Wed. would not come as when she was at my aunt's house the Monday of that week she suffered a heart attack, she was life lighted to mercy in Des Moines but while she was alive it purely by machines and within a couple of hours passed away. So I've been balancing that grief with the the fact that from the time she was released following her stroke to the day she passed a week and half had elapsed and I was the only one not to visit and be there for her. I don't think it's something I can EVER forgive myself for. Ever since this time I have gone into a shell. A few years ago with the ISU wbb in Hawaii as motivation I lost 100 pounds in six months before the trip. I've now strayed from everything that made my weight loss successful and have almost put all that weight on, and in the process have had to go back to taking blood pressure and cholesterol medicine both of which I had no longer had to take because of my prior weight loss.
Another factor that is hurting is not having the special someone that probably 90% of this board have. it's not for a lack of trying as I've spent countless dollars on internet dating. I know many will say going that route is my first mistake. Well like I mentioned in a thread about wanting to tailgate, I don't have the "social gene" . I'm very shy and reserved person heck even around my own family. I pretty much have one friend who I do things with but he doesn't like to do some things I do so I'm often going concerts or comedy shows by myself and while I do have a decent time doing things by yourself is very boring.
Usually FB season helps me out but now even FB doesn't seem to matter to me so I really think I have a poblem.
back to the subject at hand, the next medical visit I have I'm going to ask about medicine for depression. I often see their ads on tv and have wondered if anyone here knows if they work at all.
I know this wasn't what people were wanting to read on Friday before a FB game.
My confession is that I've been dealing with depression for a few years now. It's started couple of years ago I was really in a low place and about that time which was about 2 years in one month. Around that time I got word that high school classmate who I was very close friends with had taken his life. It really screwed me up because this classmate had it all, a wife who was his high school sweetheart and also member of our high school class. He also had a 1 year old son. I had just seen the three of them a few months prior at walmart in Ames and they looked so incredibly happy and what could of changed in a few months. This threw me for a loop because if my friend who had a loving wife and child decided that wasn't enough why should someone like myself who has nothing going for myself contiunue. Going to the service was bittersweet and surreal. As I grieved for my friend with my other classmates I could see just how hard it is on friends and family when someone does take their life. But I was also thinking about it from the mindset of the person who decides this which is while I know people will miss me but I'm just done and don't care anymore.
I was fine again for while until this last Feb when I lost my maternal grandmother. (I know people will say big deal people are born and we eventually die) This was hard for me because it was the first immediate family member I've lost since I was 8 years old. It's lot easier to process death as a child then as an adult. In early Feb. she was checked into the hospital because she showed signs of a stroke. She had tests done and they showed she did indeed have one and after a couple of days she was cleared to go home. After going home she was taken care of by my mother and my mother's siblings even my brother had spent time with her. I planned to spend the upcoming Wednesday with her. However that Wed. would not come as when she was at my aunt's house the Monday of that week she suffered a heart attack, she was life lighted to mercy in Des Moines but while she was alive it purely by machines and within a couple of hours passed away. So I've been balancing that grief with the the fact that from the time she was released following her stroke to the day she passed a week and half had elapsed and I was the only one not to visit and be there for her. I don't think it's something I can EVER forgive myself for. Ever since this time I have gone into a shell. A few years ago with the ISU wbb in Hawaii as motivation I lost 100 pounds in six months before the trip. I've now strayed from everything that made my weight loss successful and have almost put all that weight on, and in the process have had to go back to taking blood pressure and cholesterol medicine both of which I had no longer had to take because of my prior weight loss.
Another factor that is hurting is not having the special someone that probably 90% of this board have. it's not for a lack of trying as I've spent countless dollars on internet dating. I know many will say going that route is my first mistake. Well like I mentioned in a thread about wanting to tailgate, I don't have the "social gene" . I'm very shy and reserved person heck even around my own family. I pretty much have one friend who I do things with but he doesn't like to do some things I do so I'm often going concerts or comedy shows by myself and while I do have a decent time doing things by yourself is very boring.
Usually FB season helps me out but now even FB doesn't seem to matter to me so I really think I have a poblem.
back to the subject at hand, the next medical visit I have I'm going to ask about medicine for depression. I often see their ads on tv and have wondered if anyone here knows if they work at all.
I know this wasn't what people were wanting to read on Friday before a FB game.
Very brave post sir, go get help from a trained professional I've lost a few people I care about to depression so know what a whale that can be. In 21st century America there's plenty of treatment options that there's no reason you can't be happy. Lifes way too short to waste feeling ******. Everything tends to fall into place once you get your mind right.
Well shoot Rulzzz.
That's too bad to here about your friend and grandma.
As for the whole depression thing, I don't know if I can really give you any advice other than to keep your head up. Human life is a challenge every single day. You might not notice it some days and other days seem unbearable. It really comes down to living every day to its full potential.
Finally for the whole woman thing, I too have the shy thing going for me. If I know someone I can talk to them but if not, I can't find any way to build a conversation. Also, don't know if this makes you feel any better, but I have an uncle who is in his mid 40s and has never been married, yet he is one of the happiest people I know in my life. He has been able to travel to locations I could only dream of. He is living his life for him and really that's about what it comes down to in the end.
Hope this is more beneficial then not.
Keep your head up and go Clones!
CycloneErik
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If Rulzz is going serious, I'll throw something in (but not a story-topper. He can win that one).
Tomorrow is one of the days I've been wishing wouldn't happen. Tomorrow is the day our daughter was due to be born. That took me down all week long, because that's just how things roll.
That said, bottom was already reached for the week. Tomorrow should now just be an awkward balance of fun and sorrow. Get up early for some reading, watch Okie State game with Chinese friend in the morning so she can learn football, eat lunch, visit grave, see volleyball, eat dinner, watch WIU's worst nightmare for the evening. It's a filling sort of day.
Tomorrow is one of the days I've been wishing wouldn't happen. Tomorrow is the day our daughter was due to be born. That took me down all week long, because that's just how things roll.
That said, bottom was already reached for the week. Tomorrow should now just be an awkward balance of fun and sorrow. Get up early for some reading, watch Okie State game with Chinese friend in the morning so she can learn football, eat lunch, visit grave, see volleyball, eat dinner, watch WIU's worst nightmare for the evening. It's a filling sort of day.
CycloneErik
Well-Known Member
Safe to say here that neither one of us is striving to make this a competition. Sad is sad is sad. :smile:
Hope you enjoy this parody (I did....Oregon Cheerleaders :droolface:
[video=youtube;mDpgzn7KuzE]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mDpgzn7KuzE[/video]
I love this.
It will be even more fun to watch after tomorrow.
Rulzzz, your one of my favorite posters on here and your post only solidified it. It's brave of you, and I know everyone on Cyclone Fanatic is here to support you.
Also, I haven't found that special person, but you just have to know they will come. Be happy with single life because once you're married you're married for good.
Also, I haven't found that special person, but you just have to know they will come. Be happy with single life because once you're married you're married for good.
If it'd make you feel better to like a lot of my posts and leave me tons of rep, just have at it man, it's the least I can do for you.
