Daily dose of mom guilt provided by my clinic's receptionist. LM was showing signs of a respiratory illness the last few days with some minor breathing trouble (still eating, playing, etc., etc., just some minor retractions and heavy breathing when being really active). Of course with his history we're being cautious and call in to his clinic yesterday. No appts available so we can take him to Urgent Care. DH and I talk and decide to check in with daycare after he woke up. All was good, still eating, drinking. Ok, picked up early and still great.......had some other stuff going on and decided that we'd monitor through the evening and could still go to UC before 8pm if needed. Again, totally fine, just a bit tired as is normal with illness. Ate great. Decide that because if he this was a recurrence, they can really only do supportive therapy and can't prevent it from getting worse, we weren't doing any harm waiting and watching. This morning he seemed a bit worse - but still eating, moving - nowhere near how bad he was in April......but we call again to see if any appts. They do have one but the receptionist must have seen the note about UC and when I mentioned hey if anything opens sooner than that appt (which was in the afternoon), let me know. "Well that's why they told you to go to UC yesterday. Because if he needs treatment we can't do that here and we'll have to transfer to UC or ER and that will be an extra cost on your end." All said in a very snitty tone.
Ok then. First of all, you weren't who I talked to yesterday so you don't know how sick he is. Nor did you (or anyone else at that clinic) see how sick he was in April to compare. Second, if you're just going to transfer him out anyway, why did anyone even bother trying to give us an appt yesterday? Three, way to make me feel like the worst parent ever. Told DH and he's like well screw it then, let's just go to UC since that's apparently what they'll do anyway. So we went and got the same nurse and one of the Drs who saw him last time "hey you're the baby who made the whole clinic nervous last time!" and the Dr totally confirmed what we were doing. Said if he's going to get worse, can't really prevent it so keep watching, he's obviously active, doing ok, minor retractions but not concerned right now.
So I'll continue to trust my mom gut ...........but still totally second guessing if we should have gone yesterday even though I know it was the right call.